Entry 4

What in heaven’s name is going on here? Instead of taking five minutes out of his day to call me on the telephone and talk to me, he tracks me down in the park to have this beautiful bouquet of wildflowers delivered. I mean there I am, standing in the park, throwing Molly’s frisbee and looking like a schlump, when this guy comes over the hill and starts asking me if I’m Samantha. He’s carrying this huge thing of flowers, looking at me like he was sure he had the wrong person. But no, the card is for me and it not only has Jon’s signature on it, it has his phone number! What exactly does he want from me? Well, the only way to find out is to call... so here I go.

It was harder than I thought... picking up the phone and calling him. I stood for about ten minutes just staring at the telephone, wondering what I was going to say. But it certainly was interesting. He knew exactly who it was calling without asking... I wonder if he has caller ID? I should remember that and not call and hang up on him! But the most amazing thing? He wants to see me, as in date me! Why would he want to have anything to do with me? He seemed to be a pretty athletic person and anyone could tell just by looking at me that athleticism didn’t exactly run through my veins. But he said that he wanted to be more than just friends. I’m scared! I can’t imagine dating a man like him, or more importantly, him dating a woman like me. People will laugh, I know it. We would never be able to go out in public, he would be embarrassed to be seen with me.

But when I hesitated about going out on a date with him, know what he did? He said it was all right, that he would be patient. And we spent hours on the phone, just talking about our lives and our backgrounds. He’s a nice man... I don’t think I’ve ever really known anyone like him. Well, hopefully we can become really good friends. Though I would love it, I can’t imagine being anything more... I can’t imagine being intimate with him! Allowing him to see my body as it is! Well, I’m going to do my best to be a good friend to him.

With great fondness,
Samantha